1 - So that I can live to be an old lady
2
- So that I never have to explain to my parents in a letter why I'm dead.
3 - So that I can have a baby.
4
- So I dont cry and blame myself every time I eat a piece of pizza and throw it up.
5 - So I dont get weird looks from
friends/family every time I go to their house to eat.
6 - So I dont have to explain to the dentist why there's no enamel
on my teeth.
7 - So I can show good eating habits to my nieces.
8 - Because I don't want my nieces noticing
that everytime I eat, I also visit the bathroom, cuz she's bound to notice eventually, and thats something I'd rather not
explain.
9 - So that when I decided to recover, it wouldn't be too late, and I'd still have esphogus left, if for some
reason, I wanted to sing.
10 - Because I decided to love myself, no matter what the world says about me, cuz in the
end, you're the only person you have left.
11- Because i want to live without the voices in my
head going on about food all the time
12- Because if i don't recover i will never be truly
happy
13- Because i DESERVE to be happy at last!
14- I want to rise above my mother in her dieting
crazed life, and show her that just cuz I'm her kid, doesn't mean I can't find mental peace before her.
15-I don't
want any more of my life to be wasted in a haze from which all I can remember is the food I ate, didn't eat, threw up... what
kind of teenhood memories are those??
16-Because I'm sick of lying and telling half truths
to everyone I know
17-Because I hate having people worry about me
18-Because I would like to be able to sing for
a long time
19-Because I want to be able to eat fast food
without worrying whether it will digest before I get home
20-Because I love my family and friends too much
to see them worry
21-Because I want to be able to start college in 2years
recovered and carefree when it comes to food so I can actually enjoy that part of my life
22- Because I've put so much money into braces and
all, sorry not going to blow good teeth by losing the enamel
23- Because dizziness sucks
24-I want to have kids someday with my future husband.
25- My parents think i'm recovered already, and
seeing them so happy about something not yet accomplished makes me want to make it REALLY happen for them and for me.
26- i feel so much better knowing i'm doing
my body good and not harm.
27- i'm not even accomplishing my desires
of wanting to be thin, because i'll go through an "ana phase" and then all the sudden turn COE or i'll b/p for a couple days
and gain it all back. so really the only thing i'm accomplishing is ruining my health.
28- because my family and my best friend
are amazing and i want to stay alive with them for as long as possible.
29.because being healthy and feeling good = beautiful!
30- most importantly, i want to serve God
with my life, and i won't be able to do that by killing myself over nothing important.
31- -cause i want to 'live life' and actually experience
things, and feel things, and be able to remember what i did last month.....to have actually done something other than b/p
32-cause
i want to save some cash!!!!
33-cause i want to have a clear mind and not always been plagued by thoughts of food
food food
34-cause i think i've learned all i can from all this suffering with my ED shit....and...i meant to move
on now to something better
35-cause i want to love myself and be happy with my body
36cause i never EVER want
to steal money or binge food or diet pills again!!
37-cause my dog, Spock, deserves to be properly
loved, and played with.....he deserves to have me 'here'
38-My future (I cant be a therapist and help others
without helping myself first)
39-So I can look in the mirror and smile at myself
40-So I can laugh from the inside out
41-So I can at least see my high school graduation
42-So my teeth dont rot out of my head
42-So I can be healthy and actually feel good,
without my stomach hurting, or headaches, or constant shakey feelings
And last but def. not least because we werent
meant to live for so much more...
